Jessica Merrill
March 19th 1986 – March 12th 2006
Jessie has been gone for 2 months 1 day and 4 hours. I sat with Her on that last day at 4:00 a.m. In the morning. I’d gone to bed wishing that she would have passed in the night. But she didn’t. There was just no hope this time………..none that I knew of.
We sat on the bed in that front bedroom where she would lay for hours in her sunbeams that came into the huge windows and made Sun puddles for her to play and rest in and heat up her body. We curled up that early morning to talk about our times together And how I knew she wanted a rest from this pain that came on so suddenly.
We said our goodbyes as the sun hit the arched rooftops of the Neighborhood and she got down and left me for her bed leaving me to contemplate what to do, selfishly I wanted he to stay with me forever but I am a realist and knew the next step would be the last step for Jessie.
My daughter Missy made the arrangements and when Dr. Mulcahy saw Jessie she knew she was in renal shutdown and asked us If we wanted to sit with her and she gave Jessie a shot of sedation. And we held her and cried for her and abandoned ourselves to tears and love and the vet came back half an hour later and gave her the final shot and my Jessie was gone.
It has not been an easy road to walk since my girl has left me and I walk it alone because no one knows the real grief of losing a pet.
S. Merrill
